Well I finally made Michael bring home his computer so I can write another entry into my blog. On the way home from school today I was chatting with the boys about how their day at school was. Jacob looked at me and asked "Is a bully someone who is mean to you?" I said "Yes and then asked "Jacob, have you been having to deal with a bully lately?" He said, "Yes Mam, every time you spank us." All I could do was look at my four year old who sat there and laughed at me and told me "Gotcha Mama!" I swear sometimes I forget they are growing up and I must say that I am not looking foward to them growing up.
There was a time when I thought "I have no idea why God gave me four boys, because I really am not sure I can do this." Now I go to bed every night thanking God for such a wonderful family, and for some of the greatest children that a mother could ever ask for. So I thought that I would tell you guys about the day I found out I was pregnant with the twins.
I was eight weeks pregnant and I went to the Dr's office for a preliminary ultrasound. Michael couldn't come because he was waiting on a client (at the time he was a horse trainer), so mom came with me. The sonographer was looking at the screen and said "Um there are two of them in there." I said "You better be sh*?@!* me." (I was told that because the truth is I don't even remember much after I was told there were two in there) But I do remember my mom calling Michael and he said basically the same thing. After I left the sonographers I went to sit in the waiting room. The nurse came up to me and asked if I was okay. I looked at her and ran to the bathroom and did what every pregnant woman has ever done....threw my guts up.
So all I could think about while driving home from the Dr.'s office was "This has to be a mistake. There is no way I can be a mother to four kids. I can barely handle the two that I have, what in the world am I going to do with two more children." And now over 5 years later I am so grateful. Being a mother of four boys is beyond a shadow of a doubt the most difficult, most rewarding and most terrifying job that I have ever had. So this post is for all Mama's out there don't be afraid to be mad, laugh, cry and just have fun with your kids. Just love them craziness and all!!!!! That is what makes for the greatest families and the best memories!!!
