This is Me!!!!

So some of my friends have suggested that I should start a blog...so here it is guys and all I can say is that if I bore you to tears just remember you guys asked for it.  So to tell you a little about myself for those that might not know I am a christian mother of four boys 8, 6 and twin 4 year olds.  My husband and I live on a dairy.  He is the dairy manager for the farm and we have about 600 acres of beautiful pasture land with close to 1000 cows (mamas and babies), 5 horses, 4 dogs and 3 cats.  I am from Georgia (born and raised) and my husband is from Texas (he thinks everything is better in TX.  I tend to disagree).  So I have been told that writing a blog can be very therapeutic for the soul.  You pour your heart out and then come to some serious realizations about yourself.  Well I am going to give it a whirl...I am sure that along this journey we will laugh together, cry together and I may even make you mad (If I do it is not intentional, I am just saying what I truly feel). 

So about a actually almost 2 years ago I started trying to make my life healthier.  In the process I lost 40 pounds.  I still had about 15 more to go but over the holidays (meaning Thanksgiving and Christmas) I quit watching what I was eating and have since gained 10 pounds back.  Well I have gone back to excercising and eating correctly I am now determined to lose what went from 15 pounds to 25 but I am going to get it off once and for all.  Over the years I have sturggled with my weight.  My husband has always been my biggest supporter.  If I could not eat sweets he would not eat them either.  I have always used food to comfort me when I was stressed.  I know that I am no different from most people in that aspect but I got so obsessed over it that I truly contemplated bulemia to make myself feel better.  One day I had sat down and eaten a huge portion of double stuffed oreos (that is one of my biggest problems I can't eat just one cookie or just a small slice of cake.  I feel like I have to eat until I can't stand it).  I felt so guilty that I actually got up and headed to the bathroom to throw up the cookies.  I kept thinking I will do it this one time and then I won't ever do something like this agian.  Standing in the doorway of the bathroom I stopped myself I realized that there are probably thousands of women and girls out there that thought the same thing are and are now either dead or in a seriuos battle with an eating disorder.  So I turned around and walked back out.  I asked God to help me deal with my guilt over my eating.  Since that day I have not wanted to make myself sick I have naturally overeaten (everyone does), but now I simply get up and go for a walk or make myself do something else. 

Now don't get me wrong this may not really interest many people out there but I do promise for more humorous post in the future.  I mean seriuosly I live in a household with 5 males and my mother lives right down the hill from me.  You guys know I have to be able to laugh at the challenges in my life or I would just simply have to cry sometimes.  Thank you for taking the time to get to know me, I hope to keep you entertained in the future.